in december i had a dream where you had left. i tried so hard to find you, anything you had left behind, something you had touched, but everything was gone with you. i sat on the bed with my head down and i could smell you in my hair. i clutched my hair to my face and breathed in deeply and desperately. with every inhale the smell of you faded. i was too greedy.

this dream was probably related to my fear of being left behind and also how many times i've seen new moon.